weng in the house

陌人

2007-11-28T22:31:00.001+08:00

你曾说，若有天不幸分离了，最好别再彼此联系；
我异议，不很认同你的想法，为何非要成陌路人？

才觉悟，要是少了坚决终止，难免日后藕断丝连，
见于此，坦然接受了这假设，约定会守言且必行。

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers

For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know

距离

2007-10-17T14:18:00.000+08:00

那距离到底有多远？但距离并非很可怕，
只怕你什么都不说，只怕你什么都不做。

就算是再远的距离，并不是没人去靠近，
只是它捞捞的锁着，未曾打开让人走近。

靠近

2007-10-16T11:19:00.000+08:00

在彼此之间我选择了坦诚
因为我相信那会走得更远
既然坦诚赢得了你的欢心
为何还要输给那忧虑之心

是我的步伐让你疲惫了吗
那我把脚步放缓可会好些
不需太多的言语回复所有
只要你点头示意我就会懂

想你

2007-10-16T04:03:00.000+08:00

最近，发现心比较想你
此刻，只想诚实告诉你
原因，不是我们少见了
而是，直觉发现了不妥

心想，你会否还在怀疑
怀疑，对你所作的真心
不管，路有多摇有多远
只想，努力维系走下去

也许，是我做错了什么
从未，了解你心里要的
可否，原谅我大意无知
希望，让感情持续不散

在意

2007-09-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

也许是我不自觉的要求过多
是否能给予温柔细心的提醒
好让常粗心的我有检讨空间
为免不必要的误解有机可乘

期待

2007-09-18T12:07:00.001+08:00

总觉得目前所能给的不足
你是否也会期待着多一些

我想...
能为了爱而努力是幸福的
就让我们试着努力些好吗？

位置

2007-09-03T16:07:00.001+08:00

亲爱的，请别怀疑。。。

你在我心里占据一个非常重要的位置，
只是我不懂如何去让你相信这分真诚，
愿有天你会感应到我一直所做的努力。

一起

2007-08-20T12:02:00.000+08:00

你说，你好像不大称职。
我说，我对你好那就好。

领悟

2007-08-03T12:38:00.001+08:00

相信你曾经听过一句话，
＂真正爱一个人，不一定要拥有他，只要他得到真正幸福，那就很足够了。＂
话说回来，听似简单的道理，实际上有多少人能做得到呢？

简短的句子，似乎还不足够表达它的真正意思。
其实经过深思后，让我领悟到内里更深一层的意义。

既然缘分让我们相遇相识而又不能开花结果，
为何不让它漂亮的结束，留下一段美好又无悔的记忆。
太多的抱怨和仇恨只会让人更累更苦，那又何必呢？

爱过的，
就算某天我不爱了，或不爱我了，也许从此变成陌生人，永生不再见面了，
那就许下小小的心愿。请让他好好活着，也愿他活得好好的。
而不是期望有一天他再重遇自己会后悔或者遗憾。
既然是自己拥有不到的爱，依然不希望对方有任何的遗憾。
坦白告诉他要活得更好，勿把幸福再次错过，
要遇到一个更合适且能不顾一切去爱的人，
然后用尽所有的力气，全心全意的去爱那个人！
就算此刻分开了，那这样的分开就变得更加有意义和价值了。

世界虽然充满丑恶的一面，但还是想增添一些微不足道的一点美。

Probably

2007-08-02T16:35:00.001+08:00

I guess, you probably have decided to give up right? I think so... because I have that strong feeling too.
No matter what, I still respect your decision. Because I believe you have spent very long time to consider before you got the final answer.
Thus I also strongly believe this final decision will really good for you too. No any doubts, I won't question it...

There is something I really hope can learn from you even I know it's not easy for me. But since you've proven that it's actually can make it, so it makes me believe that is possible too. 5th May 2007, 14th July 2007, and 4th August 2007, I will always remember these dates.

I sincerely hope you're fine and be happy always. No matter what happen in the future, you still have my support and wishes...

坦然

2007-07-25T02:57:00.001+08:00

人在学习成长中，一些经历仍必需
不在乎得到什么，而是你做过什么
能学会坦然面对，也就一切无恙了

Beautiful Ending

2007-07-24T13:10:00.001+08:00

Every story or movie not necessary to have a happy ending, but at least should have a beautiful ending to let audience satisfied and enjoy it. If it end unexpected or not in the right point, what would you feel? You probably would feel that movie is suck, wasting time and money... In real life also the same, if you don't want to continue or even start a relationship, why don't just give it a beautiful ending? The starting maybe unexpected that I can understand. No one is perfect, people making mistake that's normal. When you know it is a mistake, should you give it a solution or just waiting the other party to solve for you? And you're not blur, you clear-headed all the problems are really existed. You've pointed out all the problems having between us. You have good sense better than mine. Since it's so clear, why still can make a firm decision? What's lacking? A courage to decline? Would that excessive to wait the other side to make this decision for you? If I am the one who caused all these problems, I will be brave enough to overcome it. But is that really my problems? I have spent very long time but still can't think of any...

Living in the world, almost everyone is selfish. I start can't have reason to be good to someone anymore. Human automatically would only think about them self at first that's very ordinary being. Slowly, you'll part of them without any force. It's a weak point that everyone can't avoid. If human living is because of hurting each other, why not throw my love my heart into sea, make it disappear forever ever...

No matter what, please don't dragging each other. You still owe me a word of renouncement...

幸福

2007-07-16T10:42:00.001+08:00

幸福经常围绕身旁
只是我们习以为然
惯性忽略它的存在
觉悟却是在失去时

想飞

2007-07-13T10:53:00.001+08:00

并不是只要有一双翅膀就能随意的飞，
还需要有展翅高飞的勇气才算是完美，
且勿忘谨慎为免降落时摔得遍体鳞伤。

Released

2007-07-11T12:05:00.001+08:00

Something that I just realized lately. I won't be really care how much that you care about me anymore and I won't desire to get that from you. You treat me bad, that's the way you treat me good too. So when the time you really wanna leave, I believe I won't be upset much. I'm just a person who pass by in your life and you're just a person who don't know how to appreciate me, nothing is bad to lose a person that never given you any happiness. Memory can't recall any happy things that bring from you. When a relationship break up, it would feel very sad and very pain because it brings you a lot of happiness before. If it never, what do you sad about? Yes, I don't have any reason to feel sad...

The worst thing in life is you've got numb of the feeling. You don't expect the thing would turn good anymore because you face a lot of failures. Bad thing happen to you it won't feel bad anymore because already get used to it. You pretty understand it would be fine after. You clearly understand that you can start it over again, then fall again and get well soon. Living a life like that, I can't find the meaning of it anymore. Why don't stop somewhere else just before we totally lost and turn ourself to focus on other things? At least the feeling inside us as a human still remain and we may transform it into other kind if is possible. Wouldn't that better to keep our heart warm instead of getting cold?

If we own a heart which is cool one, are we still a human?

再爱

2007-07-06T10:17:00.001+08:00

能重新爱上确实需要勇气
所谓的幸福其实是种抉择
或许需要等待和一点牺牲
但我依然相信幸福的可能

真实

2007-07-03T10:33:00.001+08:00

寂寞是
心里面有个空缺欲想找个人填补
思念是
无法根治的疾病逃避不了的情绪

试着收敛情感而不让它轻易泄露
皆用理智附和牵强理由将它隐埋
却忽略了那可能是最真实的感觉

Ambiguous

2007-06-27T11:36:00.001+08:00

we're in the position which is uncertain.
seems like I am losing the direction right now.
it's kinda hard to step forward or move back.
I guess we never really move on.
thus you make it hard to be faithful.
have question myself whether want to give up.
who is the one thinking too much? you or me?
I start having doubts, the one who I seeing is genuine you?

missing someone is an illness.
it needs time to get recovered.
will I heal from sickness or it will take longer term?
I have no answer for this time...

Responsible

2007-06-24T23:34:00.001+08:00

It's time to examine myself. We human need to examine ourself from time to time. And I almost forgot how long I didn't do it to myself. Thanks to one of my friend. Her words kinda sharp and straight to the point. At first of course it wasn't feel good to listen, but after a deep thought, I should appreciate her comments no matter it's sincere from heart or it's not.

From her words, I roughly know she was trying to criticize I lack of responsible when it comes to something. Yes, I noticed that. We human sometime have our weakness, I admit that I not good in that and I won't give myself any of nonsense excuses just to act like that's not my fault. Will remind myself and try to improve to be more responsible person in the future. Just give little time to me okay? I'm in learning stage all time and it keeps growing slowly. I'll not only want to be strong, but also want to be tough enough...

Sometime we can't use our own measurement to assess other people. I think it's not right to do so. I never had high expectation to some people who not good in something. Not because of I don't want get disappointed neither I don't want to motivate them to improve themself, but I know their limitation and how much they can do. And also some people you know they would never listen to you and won't accept any of your opinion. They think they are much better than you, and who you are? You're not qualify to criticize them just because you're lower educated. When having conversation to these kind of people, I'm speechless...

Mood

2007-06-24T12:21:00.001+08:00

Lately, the mood is not good as before. No matter what I think, sure it comes to negative side first. When a person always think of negative side, no matter how many opportunities around, I probably will miss it because of anything to me also won't work at first thought.

偶尔迎望蓝天，也感觉灰淡淡的，
也许乌云盖心，阴沉心情像下雨。

一样

2007-06-15T13:22:00.001+08:00

两心若是相连时，步伐自然成一致。
若能拉近两差异，取悦自会随心生。

接受

2007-06-15T03:34:00.001+08:00

曾经有过这样的一个疑问，
当心仪的人坦白示意后直到要接受对方，
那过程大概需要多久时间？

从表白到接受应该没有一个固定的时间可言吧。
如果心里面已经有一个他的话，也许就只需要一秒钟时间...
如果心里面不懂会不会有一个他的话，也许就需要的时间会较长些...
如果心里面没有一个他的话，也许就连一秒的时间都会是多余的...

你的心仪的对象会是属于那一种？

Attitude

2007-06-14T03:32:00.001+08:00

I'm so sick of some attitude which keep repeating to me. I just don't understand, is this the way how people treat now days?

I guess I very clear of what I am doing, because I don't want do something that might make myself regret in the rest of my life. I moved my first step, I try to do as much as I can even I've failed many times before. I didn't expect much of the return, but at least don't take it like I suppose to do so. And shows out the proud and confident face. We human often forget to take care of other people feeling when in a conversation. Why can't you appreciate more and respect more what others have done to you? Maybe you don't know, maybe you don't understand, I just feel discomfort to this kind of attitude. Why don't make thing simple, and see whether if it works together.

Relationship

2007-06-08T18:08:00.001+08:00

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold ours...

Puppies Stolen

2007-06-02T01:41:00.001+08:00

If someone saw it, please call Ann immediately. She really upset of this happen, feel pity her because we all know she loves her puppies very much... I really hope it can be found...

Feedback and Response

2007-05-30T17:10:00.001+08:00

After went to the Body Combat training, it makes me learn a lot of new things. Not only things that related Body Combat but something which can apply to our daily life as well. And I start thinking a lot of things that I never thought in my life before. I thought things that I do to myself no need to tell or responsible to anyone. But sometime people around you might make you have the feeling like, it's not your own personal thing, they also wanted to know what's happening inside. Without knowing the real whole situation, they are like can understand very well what's going on and give you many of their very good point of views. I didn't mean it's wrong and I don't blame those people. Maybe it's good to me also, but sometime it just repeats too much of the same thing and I just need a break...

Sometime something that you have really put your time/heart to work on, isn't you should at least know some honest feedback? And I very understand we usually don't want to admit ourself is making mistake or doing the wrong things. We think we're good enough, we think we're in the right direction and we full of confidence of what we do. But in fact, is that a truth? Or you only like to hear or prefer to hear positive feedback about yourself. But I think I don't need that, what I want is the true fact. Tell me directly what's my problem? How's the current situation? Have I done any mistake which I never realized? Do I need any improvement or any other way to do it better? I guess I am open enough to accept comments and results. At least I try not to make myself feel too confident of the things that I do, because I might over estimate myself. I need to remind myself of this all the time...

It's just same like you making a decision of your choices, is that really hard to tell whether that you want it or you don't? I think you ready have an answer in your heart, but you still want to take very long time to make a firm decision only...

In Love

2007-05-20T02:54:00.001+08:00

How much time needed to fall in love to someone?
1 second, 1 minute, 1 hour, 1 day, 1 month, 1 year, or impossible in love with the one forever.

This question has a lot of answers.
Some people say, "My character accept things pretty slow, maybe it needs 2 or 3 months".
Or some people would say, "This kind of question too subjective, can't measure it by time right?"
In fact, when think it deeply, it also can measure by distance. Maybe, when you have 5cm distance close to each other, suddenly you realized already attracted by his/her smile, then you'll automatically fall into he/she.

Actually, the moment in love, it seems like chemistry feeling. When both of you stay privately, suddenly you feel "PAK!" at the spark moment, i guess that's the time we fall into each other. And maybe we shouldn't question so much or having any doubts about why he/she can fall into us at first sigh or so fast? It might happen at anytime when you're not ready.

And I heard someone says "When you feel there is a chemistry appeared, you shouldn't miss that moment or drag it too long. Because chemistry will fade pretty fast and gone. And after that you probably will start regret of losing a good opportunity to catch the one deserve your love."

And you... How much time do you needed to fall in love with someone?

Choice

2007-05-09T02:50:00.000+08:00

Long time never blog, because feeling bad and busy with the works recently. I guess I only use this blog to post sad things? Why when I upset then only think of something to write here? Have been tired of this kind of feeling lar... Just wonder is that the way i ask question got problem? Why I always got the same answer which is unclear and uncertain? Or maybe it's the common way how people decline you, just that I don't aware it only. Are you trying to tell me give up? If it is, I prefered a straight answer instead of indirect ways...

Sometime I feel missing someone is just same like taking drugs. Once you fall into someone, is like you start addicted to drug. While you're thinking of that person and missing it so much, it's an uncontrollable compulsion to need the drugs. When you can see the person you wish to see then only feeling you got the drugs in hand, if you don't get it, you will start suffering and feeling been tortured. There is always a choice (words taken from Spider Man 3), if you choose to have drugs, then you deserve what you feel at that moment. But if you don't want that feeling appears, get away from there...

Strange

2007-03-30T17:14:00.000+08:00

Life sometime is like that, when you think something had gone. It may come back unexpectedly. When the time it gone, you may feel missing something very important in your life, start regret why never tried hold it tight before it had gone. Then after time has passed, feeling get better, sorrow get cured and already not so remember the pain of losing, it probably would be back to you suddenly. At this moment as a usual thought, you should feel happy and glad that something missing in your life come back to you. However, the feeling it's quite different ready compare with past. It's not because of you don't feel important ready of that thing, just that at this moment you may have different needs and desires.

Maybe things that had gone should stay inside our memory, keep it nicely and think back when you are recall of something. It would be better right? Not sure what and how it goes next, but no matter what, life still carry on. Let it be... :)

Destiny...

2007-03-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

I just wonder why every time when I have made up my mind. Somehow something sure happen to spoil me up. It seems to be okay the past few months, well I can handle the situation and had good control on my emotion. I thought I was there and know where I am standing. But it just a few messages that can make my mood turns up and down... Why it can't just leave me like that... why?

Today, drove to the same road that I used to be there so often. Not I wanted to go there, but it just happened coincidence. It made me can't avoid keep thinking the past... Sigh... memories that used to make me felt very happy but now turned my mood deeply down...

hmmm... alright! Are all these experiments trying to torture me and testing my strength? Go ahead then, see how hard I can take! Because I will overcome it one day!

Doubt...

2007-03-13T16:07:00.000+08:00

I still having doubt for my decision made. Although it's pretty firm ready. Just that sometime can't help to think back. Memory can't be erased is a fact, especially for the things that bring you a lot of happiness before, it probably will last very long...

People that you have very close relationship and friendship before, could turn to be stranger one day? I can't really accept the change... The real world maybe like that, but it just can't apply to me. I don't feel comfortable to smile or having conversation because of entertaining each other only. I admit don't really good in acting infront of people, thus I rather lose a friend just like that...

I feel really sorry to disappoint people that have expectation to me as well. I can't change something that is not real on me. I am who I am, won't gonna change anything that make me looks different or reality :p

Final Decision!

2007-03-05T01:37:00.000+08:00

At last, I had made up my final decision. Hopefully it won't be any change ready.
Yes! Promised myself that I can make it... YEAH... happy with that ^__^

分手不要問理由

2007-03-02T17:16:00.000+08:00

分手時，沉默是最好的問題，最圓滿的答案。

戀愛是甜蜜的，分手是難免的。
誰不是痛過幾次，哭過幾次，才找到最後的愛。分手是必經的，但有些問題不必問。

1.不要問：為什麼要分手？
無論答案是甚麼，都是你難以接受的原因。

2.不要問：你有沒有愛過我？
愛過如何，未愛過又如何，總之這一刻就是不愛。

3.不要問：我做錯了些甚麼？
愛不是講對錯，而是講感覺。相愛是談情，不是講理，當愛的感覺已經不存在，對和錯又可以挽回些甚麼？

4.不要問：我有甚麼不好？她有甚麼好？我有甚麼比不上她？
何必逼對方，再一次侮辱你，打擊你的自信心。

5.不要問：難道你不記得我們以前快樂的日子了麼？
他/她要離開，就是因為他/她要的是現在的快樂，和將來的快樂。

6.不要問：不如我們重新來過？
這個哀求只會令對方覺得你更可憐、更卑微。

7.不要問：我們以後還可不可以做朋友？
這樣拖泥帶水，對方只會感到厭煩。

分手時，沉默是最好的問題，最圓滿的答案。

Distance

2006-12-20T11:25:00.000+08:00

I like this photo a lot (even it's not taken by me ^^").
What can you see from this photo?
Someone might very close to you of the distance, but his/her heart it's actually very far from you... What makes the distance so close and it's not couple yet? Because of fear? Scare of losing what we having right now?

People in this photo, what do you think huh?